Not Quite Martha

Useless...

I had one hell of a weekend. Crazy night on Friday with some girlfriends. There are pictures, but I am pretty sure I need to get a release signed before I post them on the internet.

Yesterday, day of recovery. Frustration. Every single damn thing I tried to do yesterday got waylaid. Seriously... everything. Tried getting a new phone - Of course they were out, as every freaking geek in Arlington got there before I did.

Tried getting my eyebrows waxed, but my normal girl is on vacation. I went to a place that was recommended, and the woman seriously looked like Bert from Sesame Street.
Clearly I wasnt going to let her touch my brows. In fact, I left very quickly.

Last night, I was determined to spend the night at home watching Kevin Sullivans Epic Mini Series- Anne of Avonlea.. I swear. Got a call from a friend to join he and another at Front Page. Me, being of stellar fortitude and strength, quickly climbed out of my p.j.'s and threw on some trampy clothes and ran out the door. My night was unique to say the least.

This morning, I am basking in the glow of a good Sunday morning lay-in, when I get a call from one of my good girlfriends sobbing. Without even asking, I threw on some clothes, and ran out the door and drove over to her house. Turns out that she has had ENOUGH with her rat bastard man in her life, and needed to vent.

I had planned on working out, working on some CASA stuff, and working on my tan.
Instead, I watched Selena, took a nap, and am now listening to Neil Diamond sing "Sweet Caroline"

Proud of my weekend, let me tell you.

ethereal...

I dont really know how to explain Imogen Heap.. her music is peaceful and makes me feel like writing.

Check out Hide and Seek and tell me that you dont feel calmer just listening to it.

Its the ADD coming out again..

But this time it is manifesting in my music selections for the day.

I would love to have a therapist take a look at my music choices in the past hour-in no particular order:

Martha Manuzzi- "Its a New Season" (gospel)
Prince "Pussy Control"
Dixie Chicks "Cowboy Take Me Away"
Inara George "Fools in Love"
Rufus and Chaka Khan "Tell me something good"

What can I say- I like some diverse music. Today, however, I took it to the extremes.

Random thoughts that have been brewing in my head for the past week now- I have talked in many posts about just "letting go" and trying to let my life drive to where it needs to be. It has been a constant struggle to achieve the balance that I feel like I need to have. Everytime I just "give it up" things seem to be heading in the right direction.

Last week I was offered an amazing job. Seriously amazing. It would have put me at the highest point professionally that I have ever been before- Great money, international travel, you name it. It just didnt feel right. It didn't feel right for a few reasons- Mostly, the job would have required an immediate relocation to Atlanta, and many know how I feel about moving. Additionally, I just dont feel "done" with DC.I can't explain right now what I am not "done" with, but I feel that there are things, projects, etc, that I would like to see to fruition, or closure- whatever comes first.

I turned that job down. Monday, midday, I thanked them for the opportunity, and decided to keep looking in DC.

Tuesday, back in town. I am then presented with two other offers, both much more suited to what I need to be doing in my life. I realize what my priorities are, and where my values lay. Both jobs will address the things I am looking for on a daily basis.

Yesterday, was kind of big day for me personally- a lot of things happened, many of which put a LOT of things into perspecitve for me-Made me realize what was really important to me and how I want to progress in the next few months.

Today is another big day of decisions, change and progress. I am just finally comfortable again knowing that while I may not exactally know where this voyage is taking me, I am at least on the right path.

Good for an overcast Friday..

Sam Roberts

Check out "Every Part of Me"  on We We Born in a Flame

I forgot how much I love this song...

Don't Dream It's Over (Neil Finn)

There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the T.V. page

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don't ever let them win

another good thing

I know I am coming late to the party talking about this album, but I rediscovered it on my iPod this morning when I went for a walk.

Check out Garden State.. Great music from a great movie.

Not new...

but good...  Nil Lara

Check out fighting for my love 

Bad Habits

I have a horrible habit, that very well may render my single for the rest of my life.

I have music OCD. When I find a song I like, I must play it over and over and over, and well, over.

I have been doing this for years- I remember listening to New Kids on the Block's "I'll be loving you forever" about a million times before my mom accidentally ran over that tape with the vacuum.

I remember in college, I had a serious thing for the entire "Fumbling Towards Ectasy" CD by Sarah McLaughlin. I have literally purchased that one over and over.

Now, I have Pinky, the magical iPod. I can play any song over and over and over with just a minor flick of my wrist. Its a thing of beauty- I can listen to Stevie Wonders "I Believe" 14 times in one sitting. I can listen to Heather Headleys "In My Mind" 10 times without ever having to hit the rewind button. I can listen to Velvet Undergrounds "Sweet Jane" until tomorrow if I wanted to.

Last week, after a particularly challenging day, I decided to go for a wee bit of a drive. With my iPod and unfortunatly, a pack of Marlboro Lights. I fired up ole Pinky and we listened to music for hours- One of the songs dejour was Billy Joels " And so it goes". For some reason that song resonated with me greatly that evening. Before that, I had been on a big "Under Pressure" kick by Queen and David Bowie. Hell, the morning on my way to work, I think i must have listened to "The Humpty Dance" at least 4 times.

I don't know why I associate so much to music. I certainly talk about it - Read here or here or heck even here.

I also dont know why I try to listen to music over and over and over, but here as I head out of the office, I happily load iPod in hand, knowing that I am going to play some poor song to death tonight!

It's like finding an old friend

This morning was a GORGEOUS morning. My roomate was playing some Billy Joel this morning- and I remembered one of my all time favorite BJ Song..This Night . I forgot how much I loved that song- Billy Joel's Innocent Man was my first tape ever. I must have listened to that damn tape a million songs, and even as a 9 year old, I remember loving that song. Today, the lyrics actually mean something to me, as opposed to being a clueless kid, but I still smile everytime I hear it.

It's amazing how as your grow, emotionally and mentally, and well hell, in years, how you percieve music differently. I have always loved music, and have had a voracious appetite for variety- that has not changed. A benefit though of growing older is that I actually "get" these songs- they just aren't pretty melodies anymore. I actually understand what could have driven a person to write a song.

Just a random thought from a girl that spent the main portion of her day driving, and looking at apartments. Did I mention that I looked at apartments all day? I swear I am going to plunk my money down on the next one that I look at. It's time.

Today started off great- got up, realized that it WASNT cold anymore, and just smiled. I picked up a friend and we headed to Baltimore for my friends Kegs&Egg's party- what a total hoot. Wish I could have stayed longer. We then headed back to NoVa to look at apartments- which ended up taking soo much longer than I would have actually preferred. We were then supposed to go to the Shamrock Fest- a street party in Ballston, but by the time we got done looking at apartments it was 5:30, and it would have cost me 20 bucks to hang out for three hours. I was so jealous looking at all the people that were wandering around, wearing the green and just having a blast. The frugle Mc Froog in my just couldnt justify spending the $$ for a few hours.

So in a nutshell, that was my day. Totally boring to most, but still a good day after all. Spring has finally sprung.

Morning Radio in DC Blows

I am going to put it out there and say something. I am not a morning talk news person. I am actually a morning person (gasp), but I hate the endless pratter of people yapping about absofreakinglutly NOTHING in the morning. I want to hear music and get my head ready for work. Thats my thing.

My iPod will not play through my car right now- not sure what is going on with that- so I am left with two options- flipping through stations for an hour, or listening to NPR. I am all for NPR at any other time of the day EXCEPT morning. I like my morning radio light and easy- much like a good omlette.

This morning I was on the beltway for 37 minutes from door to door- not horrible considering the length of my commute.

I heard this morning, in no particular order:

My Humps

I'm in love with a stripper

Let's Hear it for the boy

That damn song with people whistling

and finally, the only decent song I heard- Journey "Faithfully"

I am seriously thinking about getting Sirius radio, or perhaps learning to meditate on my way in. You know, find my inner Zen on the beltway.

It could happen